Corner of my Mind

movie rambles.

2009-11-27T20:26:00.000-08:00

so i recently got back into the Trek fandom, after leaving it for a while and it made me really happy to be back in a fandom that is so accepting and incredible. it also helps that Star Trek is no longer something to hid about, with the successful reboot of STAR TREK from the director skills of JJ Abrams and his fantastic team of writers and producers, the casting of Chris Pine(Kirk), Zachary Quinto(Spock) and Karl Urban(McCoy) and the rest of the cast (because that was spot on).

as the rumors fly around about the sequel, who'd be brought in, which characters, which direction will it go and dabble in? As a fan and a fan of thriller based movies (not just horror, but movies that have an intellectual background), i'd like to see the writers take cues from the television show, primarily in the way of Conscience of the King(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gOMcqnRwhW8), City on the Edge of Forever (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eNNQMIjjWgQ), The Immunity Syndrome (http://w ww.youtube.com/watch?v=T-wM0D5b-bw), Amok Time(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uftZX_KJRWs) just to give a few ideas out there and hopefully introduce more people to what started it off (the original television episodes in the 1960's).

with that ramble out of the way, here comes the next part of my rambling, which is prospective casting in the sequel for any characters they decide to bring in. Exception is that in Abrams' Star Trek, Chapel's name is mentioned but isn't seen, so i am ignoring that for "wishful" casting. Keeping it to TOS Characters to be brought in, these names pop up: Janice Rand, Lt.Christine Chapel, Lt.Dr.Jabilo M'Benga, Lt. Kyle, Lt. Kevin Riley, Lt. Gary Mitchell, and Lt.Commander Giotto and here are my wish actors or those i think would do a good guy (for reference, the new crew of the Enterprise are all in their early, mid, late twenties and thirties)

Why did I choose these actors, you're probably asking me but for me, its about the looks and how i see the characters from the TOS to changing in to possible Abram's characterization. And some of this may seem like extra fannish but whatever. I know the probability of this happening is slim and rare but doing this makes me happy.

Yeoman Janice Rand as Emma Rigby.

Lt. Christine Chapel as Bryce Dallas Howard

Lt. Dr.Jabilo M'Benga as Shemar Moore or Leonard Roberts or Noel Clarke

shemar___________ leonard______________ noel

Lt. Kyle as Russell Tovey

Lt. Kevin Riley as Matt Cohen

Lt. Gary Mitchell as Mark Lawson

Lt. Commander Giotto as Mark Harmon

little under a month.

2009-09-19T22:29:00.000-07:00

Okay, so its been like a bit under a month and not a lot has changed but things are brightening up for me. And this is just a few of the not-so-so-changes occuring:

1) A few more weeks until my road test (need to practice my turns, parallel parking and stopping at the line)
2) I BOUGHT MY SAN DIEGO COMIC CON TICKET JUST A FEW MINUTES AGO!
3) I have lost at least three pounds since four weeks ago and losing more!
4) Kate & Noel's second "unofficial-official" wedding in December
5) Susan's first Cancer Benefit she throws in October
6) Boondock Saints II comes out nd I'm going to the midnight showing when its out

more later.

this is what my life has come down to

2009-08-27T21:53:00.001-07:00

Basically here it goes. i've been talking to a few good people so far for the past two months or so, & i've discovered that the basis of our convo's involve movies, sex, twitter and star trek . so i decided to condense everything for prosperity's sake, and for my own because i read it and laugh so hard.

I forgot that IN AUSTRALIA PHONES FUCK UP THE DATE? THEN WHO WAS PHONE? APPARENTLY and dates fuck up your phone but only peripherally THATS BULLSHT THEY'RE PRECIOUS THAT'S WHY with pictures is sex a caricature though too if it weren't for physics and law enforcement, i'd be unstoppable oohhh, when mixing paint becomes fun..hmm way with words and probably a way with his tongue and like, keeping it in my pocket and I'd hit it I DROVE ALL NIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT, TO GET TO YOU they’re the same character and pushed off the cliff known as Avant Garde while I lost my marbles and rode the pine pony at my local theater, it was fun brace? Brave. IT IS ah that suit is sweeeeet. Its so cracked out all do is giggle like a drunk because it was simply simple in its simple simplicity that happy rules unless you've done something retarded Still Sells Albums, YES DO IT That’s Why I WILL LATER but...I'm trying to read this. BUT he’s dead so how, he can't tweet? swoon and jizz PLEAAAAASE HAI HAI OMG in that photo LOOK AT HIS BUTTONS and and and STRIDE IS A CONDOM COMPANY for the DAZZLING DEADWARD CULLEN BY ATLEAST 4,OOO did not notice but "dude chill" I GOT THIS and kirk's all, "you've been punked!" taquitos! BECAUSE IT CAME WITH TEXAS TOAST AND GRAVY HOLLAAAAA ) amazing.wait no. exciting intense. well it's community college did not like read it in 1 day "and I AM COMPULSIVE when depressed" maigcal pretty things; I knowwww, I just wanna lick his lips I just wanna lick him. and i'd die a happy happy girl so quiet yeah odd LOUD NOISES poppin lol

ONTD_STAR TREK= AWESOME

2009-07-24T02:16:00.000-07:00

so this weekend, well sunday actually, is going to be my first hangout/get together with a few of the fabulous peeps at ONTD_Star Trek over on live journal. I am really excited because I've seen photos of other meet-ups and I always wanted to go because they looked like so much fun and now i have my chance.

Basically, we are going to brunch and than roam around and go back to one of the girl's apartments in the village to hang out and basically relax with Star Trek and some good times. Finally people who enjoy Star Trek, at least i wont get made fun of for liking it, and not just the movie...I am talking about the original series with Shatner and Nimoy & Kelly and the movies. So i'll talk more when thats over and done with.

drivers ed is coming along, although i am procrastinating. i do want to learn how to drive but i am not ready to actually take my road test. I need to practice some more and everyone who i would practice with as the idea that i'll be fucking perfect at it because my dad was like that. Guess what I am good at academics but I suck at driving....accept it as fucking facts okay AND we will all be happy in the long. I do not like that people are pushing me, it fucking sucks.

the summer is going pretty well although i need to send out my shit to SCSU and Brooklyn College again to transfer for the Spring Semester. Really should hop on that, shouldn't I?
Saw Transformers 2 & Harry Potter 6---- go see them!

alone

2009-07-06T20:18:00.000-07:00

i have come to accept something that has been following me for the past couple of years and it is something that is highly depressive; i am alone in the sense of friendship.
What is wrong with this sentence? I am a sweet, outgoing, loyal, funny, person who would do anything for their friend and would rather hang out at a small restaurant with good stories and good food than get piss drunk and forget the night. If you need me, I will be there as soon as possible. So why is that I cannot keep a friend, or the friendship fades, along with me in it?

I look at my facebook a lot and see everyone with updated photos of going out with friends and doing random crap. I see all their smiling faces, joyous expressions, cuddling with friends, boyfriends and girlfriends, i see posts on their wall discussing things gone by and "ohmygodimissandloveyou" or "rememberthattimeyoudidthatthingthatwecantdiscussandMAGICWORD" and poof instant replies. but when i try and ask people to get together, they are ignored or are brushed off and get responses like "maybe next time", "oh def, we should do something soon" or or the best one of all "i don't know". It hurts. it hurts really really bad.

i feel as if I am doing something wrong and no one will tell me. i understand that some people will be closer to others and i am totally cool with it. i just want to have at least one friend who wont mind when i am emotionally confused or emotionally drunk and all i really want is to have a non-sexual cuddle to make me feel better, i want someone to not make fun of me for like geeky things and being geeky at times. I want to know that if i tell some person my deep fears, regrets, secrets, hopes and dreams that i wont be made fun of and they wont be like "thats stupid" or just brush it off. Sometimes i cry myself to sleep to purge my emotions but it never works and makes me feel even worse.

for flying fuck sakes, my parents are starting to take a proactive interest in this by explaing to me that sometimes friends fade away for a reason and its normal. my family is pushing me into doing this and that, the are even pushing for me to go to the bars by myself and drink to meet people. I don't want that, i want the people i call friends to ask ME TO DO SHIT. i always ask to do something or make plans and it never works, always fall through.

please.
i beg and plead and pray and ask on everything that is sacred, holy and precious that i am sent a good friend who wont abandon me or ridicule me or take me for granted. just let me have one non-sexual emotionally connection to a person. i need it. i dont want to be alone any more

Happy Belated Fourth of July

2009-07-05T19:58:00.000-07:00

July 3rd: Beach all day. Did not get sunburnt. Went to G's BBQ who made an amazing sticky chicken-kabobs. Drank and went home. Cousins arrived at 10:45pm from VA.

July 4th: Shannon and Sean visited with Sean's girlfriend Mary (she's cool), Sean is going to twenty-nine palms in California on the 10th, so I got a chance to say goodbye. (Shannon and their other brother T.J will be back next week to visit more relatives are coming in). Went to the beach...got horribly, horribly sunburnt- My neck, my chest, my lower chest, my upper right thigh, my ankles and feet are all red and painful. Alcohol dulled the throbbing pain, had fun partying with the relatives and watched fireworks.

July 5th: saw Star Trek (bootleg DVD from UES) and decided that if UFP & Starfleet really did exist I would apply to be a communications officer and have sexy time in space (of course I'd be on the Enterprise). Also I am starting to believe that Chris Pine and Zachary Quinto are having a massive relationship that prounces on what is defined as a "Bromance" in todays world.
They share clothes and a trainer and loads of other things. THERE WILL BE A SEQUEL!

I'm currently abusing soothe-a-caine at the moment and massive amounts of extra-strength Advil to dull the pain. And spraying my body with Bath and Body Work's Cucumber Melon body spray to not have the smell of the sooth-a-caine. I wish I had my cuddle partner.

week things...oh

2009-06-28T20:16:00.000-07:00

saw transformers 2 by myself. awesome kick-ass killer summer blockbuster. i recommend everyone to go see it.

things: my driver's ed instructor. yes i am twenty and taking driver's ed now...i took AP and Honor classes while working two jobs in high school, I barely had any me time or even time to hang out with my friends. So i decided to take it now (well after being hounded my parents & neighbors to do so over a span of six months- i like the metro, sue me!). stupid bitch doesn't have to raise her voice and put me down, make me feel like shit.

death: buried my great aunt, my mom lost an old friend who died, and her bff's mom is currently on the cusp of death. And people in Hollywood have been falling off the branches :Farrah Fawcett, Ed McMahon, Billy Mays, Michael Jackson all dead. Kinda sad...not gonna lie....everyone just fading away and dieing, so not cool. May all their souls rest in peace.

happy: summer is here, going back to tanning and the beach, no hard work right now. i figured out what i want to do one day in the summer; rent some movies, order some delicious food and sit in my back yard with my laptop with my feet in a kiddie pool and lounge with friends for a movie marathon. it'll happen but since my friends aren't in to the whole "movie marathon with no purpose" oh well

and this ends my sad and short post about the nothing that currently is my summer life.

the rains in june brings sadness in two's.

2009-06-15T14:55:00.000-07:00

yea.
i said it.
i have a dislike of summer.

summer has its perks, the beach, the sun, a fruity frozen drink, umbrellas, and the scent of the sun, beach, water, soft fragrances, and tan lotions creates a scent that is very precise to beach communities, along with the bon-fires on the beach, bbq's parties, and flip flops. We have off from school for about two months and we can work, spend all hours of the day with friends.

but personally, a lot of heavy shit happens to me.

for the past couple of summers, i have had to bury close family and friends, in the literal and metaphorical sense as well. And it appears that this summer is not going to be any different. My Great-Aunt, who is technically the Matriarch of my very large family is quite ill, and has taken a turn for the worse. No one knows if she can survive the week, and that is quite sad. I hate having the feeling loom over you, as you know what is gonna happen and you try to brace yourself for it but when you do that, it hits you harder and crueler than expected.

My Great-Aunt was the first person in the family to fully accept my mom was my Dad's girlfriend and later on wife, after he divorced his first wife (who is a confused and messed-up bitch) whereas the rest of the family thought that Dad and the Bitch would get back together again and took a while to accept it. So I had loved my Great Aunt for being the first to accept my mom and that she was an amazing woman of character, grace and one of the most honest and blunt women I have ever known and probably will ever know. Not to mention that this leaves my Grandmother completely alone, she had to bury her husband on Christmas, her second oldest son after the last family trip in July 2008, her Husband's brother on Thanksgiving 2008 and now quite possible will have to bury her sister, her last relative in the US.

This is what is hovering in my life right now.
Also: I did not get accepted into SUNY New Paltz, CUNY Brooklyn College because although my gpa was in the 3.0^ range, it is too competitive. I was saddened. But a positive is that i have my learner's permit and being driver's ed tomorrow, along with summer classes to keep my busy.

more later.

still trying to think catchy

2009-05-01T16:06:00.000-07:00

Decided that it might be a good idea to start writing at the like the beginning and ends of the month now to keep up a rhythm of sorts, and to make sure that I will actually write about things that I find important.

Its still has been odd weather. And quite annoying as well. Its the end of April and we have been having messed up weather. It goes from 30 to 50 back to 40 to 70 and than down to 50 and than raises up to the mid 80 (this is all degrees). And as of right now...a killer rain storm! And i mean killer, its pouring down in an aggressive manner (if thats even possible). I keep hoping for a really really good thunder and lightening show tonight!

Okay, off that and now on to my schooling; everything has gotten significantly better, even Spanish! I also found out that for my Spanish credits to be passed onto Brooklyn College, I have to take Spanish II over the summer (another summer spent in class!) and I hope hope hope that i do not get stuck with the teacher I have now. History and Psych are going quite well, i just need to catch up on some last pieces of homework and papers and viola! Lastly is my Intro to Bio class. The professor is a funny old man but gives horrible lab tests, meaning the questions are so hard to answer since they are copied from a paper he hand writes on, and its the things you would never think to study, the final is cumulative, and TWO TERM PAPERS!!!!

I am planning a trip to the big library in the city to do a major haul-ass research trip. for the term papers.
Also this weekend, I need to finish my project on Spain and I also need to type up my Observation reports for psych. (they are being handed in late, still hope I do a good job though)

I bought myself a a tanning package at the local salon, 22 sessions to help my white-ass become tan for the summer!
it was nice to spoil myself!

Past this, this is where i need the help:
i am also doing an overhaul of working out tomorrow. Bikes, Weights, Stretches, Stationary Bikes and the oh so funny Dance Dance Revolution [i use it as a relaxer and something that is good for my legs]. If anyone has any ideas of what else I could or should do or use, please comment and help me out!

to hide and to seek, is not a child's game anymore;

2009-04-07T18:53:00.000-07:00

sad title isn't it?
how pathetic...the point of where my life is...is pathetic.

nothing is going right. i feel myself slipping, continuously slipping, into something i cannot recognize anymore. Am i myself any more? Am I still the bright precocious child that brought a smile to everyone's face and lifted a bit of sadness off shoulders? Am I a good daughter, raised by wonderful parents and overcame obstacles in my life that could have ruined it? Am I still the good friend that stood by their side through thick and thin, through suffering and happiness?

I look in the mirror and cannot recognize my own self now. I see a sad and tired young girl whose "eyes have dulled" and feels older than she is, I see a brunette who shined but now fades away when she tries and messes up. People tell me they see a beautiful, pretty, independent brunette with open eyes and caring smile...I guess they see the mask I carry on all the time, when I wake up to when I sleep.

i can be honest and open here. i am sitting here, on the floor of my basement, thinking about my life, and trying to pinpoint where everything went wrong...and why do i have the pit of despair in my stomach, playing creeper to my sanity. Is this what it feels like to be alone in a warm room with warm people? I don't like it, not one bit. Can I change it? How can I get the warmness back?

I have family that I love and care for, I include the small dear group of friends that I have who have been there for me and tell me my mistakes, my faults, my positives, my things. This is a little light that tries to be a bigger light, and it sucks. Maybe i should listen to my mom and see about trying to find that spark i had growing up, maybe as much as I fight it that I should do it.

maybe it is time to try and find God again.

way down the lights are dim...

2009-02-26T20:59:00.000-08:00

In 14 days, I turn 20.
Officially out of my teens and in to my phase 2 of the young adult years. And want to know something, I am not really that excited about it. Another hooray and another year older according to the calender and my internal clock which hates me.

So..other than being the up and coming thing in my life, wanna know where my friends are going to take me to my 20th birthday? Amanda, my amazing bffl, rounded up some people and are taking me to LIPS! Yes, my friends are dragging me to a Drag Queen Restaurant in the city (website- http://www.lipsnyc.com).

Gotta love my friends.

They know how to entertain me....these are my buddies from High School, so its also a reunion of sorts really and i am truly excited. AND on the same spectrum: The girls and guys from LI/AU are thinking of taking me to Lucky Cheng's (website- http://www.planetluckychengs.com) in the city, which is another Drag Queen Restaurant in the city, after my birthday (due to the fact that their spring break is during my birthday) and I will have most likely gone to not one but TWO DRAG DINING EXPERIENCES in one month. Boy, will it be an experience..and i get the ability to judge both, kinda.

I have also discovered the love of new artists [well new to me, old to some others] and these have been playing on my itunes for about a week straight. A few of them I can name off the top of my head are

Metisse,
Belle & Sebastian,
The Boy Least Likely to,
The Bird and The Bee,
Melissa Ferrick,
Majandra Delfino,
The Toadies
Esthero
hypercrush,
honey honey,
the Wombats, just to name a few!

Its kinda flowing from Indie, Alternative, Acoustic and Cabaret. With a smidge of the ever lovable and amazing John Barrowman, who really does have a good voice (and the fact that he is Captain Jack, is a plus plus!!!)

ohandheresaphotobcuziwannapostitherekluvbaibai!

effin new post

2009-01-25T12:41:00.000-08:00

hear ye, hear ye. i bringth new blog.

i have a new catchy title now. So currently it is the year 2009 and I had the chance to attended Obama's Inauguration with the most amazing people ever, my caucus 9 folks from Presidential Classroom. I love them all soo much and I really really really do miss them. See the things we did and went through, others don't go through so you get to make a bit of a connection. Waking up at like 2:30 in the morning to get on a bus and walk all around DC from like 6am till 2pm creates a bond of water breaks and bad blisters and the inability to walk in heels at your Inaugural Ball. So to my caucus 9 buds and everyone else I meet, and my roommates, i love all you <3!>

Well currently, I am in the process of planning my twentieth birthday party; which is in the process of choosing a concert or a comedy club, and the comedy club looks like it is winning since it will be much more doable for the people I want to be there for, and that means my AU girls and guys and maybe my cousin Katye would wanna come. Anywhoo, i need to get everything figured since for all the places a reservation is a must when having parties over like eight people and all over age eighteen and we basically all are. And I am just really really excited to actually be able to sit down and watch a comedy show, wish I could drink but a fake id will solve that problem. and right now i am watching E and procrastinating my homework. ahh the life of the college student.

effin new year

2009-01-05T13:27:00.000-08:00

JOY!SURPRISE!HOORAY!

its the new year already. 2009...can you believe it?! hardly a year to be excited about in my opinion.

i hate that i am slowly becoming not-so-excited for the new year to come, kinda find it redundant a bit? is that wrong that i really dont want to celebrate in the fact that I failed multiple times in 2008 and that there is an equal to greater chance that I will do only 15% better than last year. Welcome to my Life.

And i have heard so many people tell me that, "it get better with age"; "all the bad that happens know will one day bring you so much good"; ""its your fault...so stop moaning and do something"
WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO DO FOR THE PAST TWO FUCKING YEARS YOU IGNORANT LITTLE BLOODY FUCKING PRICKS!!!

it is sad and miserable but nice and peaceful. double oxymoron? i would gather to guess. I have come to learn that I say that I am gonna do this or I am gonna do that, and I give an attempt but it never works out and I try to do everything different and I dont get a change either. Am I doing something so cosmically wrong that this is my punishment!
I have given all my efforts and haven't had the chance to have any of my spoils.....other people get their spoils for their efforts. One example is that I try to eat health and work out to keep me healthy but then family events happen and it knocks me off my game plan and BAM...i fail, again. I am not the smartest, nor the prettiest, nor am I the one with the street smarts or brave even, those positions belong to others in my family.

You know the old nursery rhymes about the day you child is born.
I was born on a Monday (not on a Friday like I was lead to believe) and I definitely dont fit what it says.
"Monday's child is fair of face." And that is not what I would describe myself. But it is what I want to be.
And like I promise to myself, that I am gonna make the changes and do what is necessary to make sure it stays...even If I have to some drastic things to make sure that it does happen, than I will. I would rather be pretty than healthy. it is sad to say but the unannounced pressure one side of my family gives off, is enough to drive any one crazy.

Wish me Luck that I succeed
and pray that I dont need to
take drastic measures.

2008-12-20T10:44:00.000-08:00

Guess it finally feels like a proper Christmastime now.

New York finally has gotten snow for the past two days and as much as I love it, I do not like when I have to go shopping in the city and decides to wear my Uggs, which are now completely ruined beyond fixing. I was in the city from 11am till 4:30pm, and by 12:30 my Uggs were soaked, and were soaking through my socks, meaning my feet were sitting in soggy uggs and socks, creating squishy little puddles that almost froze my toes. Another factor was that we went from Herald Square to Time Square to 14th Street and Chelsea/Village..walking really (and the occasionally train). I did get half of my Christmas Shopping done and the rest will be completed tomorrow and Monday.

Today is gonna be entertaining and busy, since its my mom's family xmas party, which is gonna be a lot of fun. All of my mom's siblings, and a few of their cousins are gonna be there. I get to see my cousins, which I love since I hardly ever get to see them (thank god for facebook!!!) and we will imbibe in the drinks and food, like we normally do. Since we are all almost close in age, its nice since, the majority of the lot can do things together with out such a big age gap. Hopefully Jeanna and her family will be done for the Xmas, we would all love to see them!

I took all my finals...just need to get my grades back, along with my grades from the winter session and than I can send in my application to SUNY New Paltz!

2008-12-11T21:54:00.000-08:00

rain.

constant hard aggressive rain.

i love it.thats what happening outside my window again.

**god i love it. the rain just makes everything seem better. i love hearing the pitter-patter of the rain, its so soothing and calm, like your old baby blanket or cuddly stuffed animals, or the strong and caring arms of a lover. god. i have become sappy in my old age. oh well, figured since i never really had the best relationships with love while in high school and the first three months in University...it truly is a nice change of pace for me. And makes me want a relationship that could last more than a few months and be built on strong foundations. oh my...did another ramble. this is the one downside to a blog, i can constantly ramble and ramble with out anyone biting my head off or telling me to shut up. but i need to get something off my chest or else I will burst in a supernova of emotions that would make someone in the soap opera world jealous.**

it sirius topick:
why do people always assume that I'll be splendid if you drop plans for hanging out using the excuses they always use and turns out that it was a fucking lie. "i am not feeling well" or "there has been a change of plans and I can't go" or "rain check...can you come out here or something like it" or the best one that I love and always find is complete bullshit is the one where we keep our plans and I arrive their waiting like an idiot for her friends to come for an hour or two and become sad and than have to fib a bit and tell the people that "We had fun doing what we do" instead of telling them the truth...that it was another abandoned meet up. Always have happened to me and most likely always will. isn't it pathetic. and these people are supposedly my best friends.
Many friends have done this over the years and continue to do this. sucks really but i guess i have no other option but to stick through this life that I have created for myself. And guess what, to let this hit home for me, I have decided to share my small sample of that which i dont like...being truly alone.

i've a perfect example story:

a) their was this girl who has my best friend for over half a decade. been through everything you can imagine. [sleepovers, dabbling in wicca and some other stuff, blood sisters, heartache, stupid little "you had to be there moments", vacations with each other and telling each other our deepest and darkest secrets, suriving HS and elementary school with each other too] And than comes graduation and me moseying along to AU...and entering a whole new life and new friends.

But i never left her in the back of my life....always invited her to visit me, or tried to talk her into meeting up in the city. and on the days that I went home for the weekend and i told her so, she hardly ever visited me.
Than came January and that month rocked my world like no other, bringing everything I knew and believed in down, crumbling like Pompeii did for Vesuvius and she tried to help me but in the end abandon me to a swirling pit of darkness but my other friends pulled me out of it and helped me get to where I am now and where I want to go.
She never again contacted me...no phone calls, no im, no myspace or facebook. I get nervous and than found out, around the not Merry Month of May that she got in some deep shit that she loves but will ruin her life in the long run.

1)Did i hate her?...back than, for abandoning me? no..never.
2)Do I hate her now? At the moment of right now...Yes. I can say I hate her. For promising me that she would never leave me as a friend. But I look back at our memories...always showing up late for hanging out, saying yes and never showing up. I have learned a lesson from her though; she showed me the ways a Best Friend Can Fail At Friendship.
3)Will I hate her in the future? Maybe not, Hopefully she will be apart of the chapter in my book of experiencing the world and look at with a longing to be young again and have that connection again or Maybe even forget that she ever existed in my life.

In conclusion: i hereby free myself from the constraints of our friendship.

bit more about:

2008-12-06T21:48:00.000-08:00

**partial disconnected attachment-to only sever part of an affection.**

this is how my life currently is, or I call it PDAS (the "s" meaning syndrome). sounds about right and dont think I am "emo", I am far from it. Its just how life is for me right now, certain connections in my life are severed and appear to be irreconcilable for an indefinite amount of time which is fine by me, and than there are others that I am upset about and I cant really let people know about it but there is one person I could tell about. She is one of my best friends, and one of the few people who i could trust with the dark secrets about me. And I am seeing her on Wednesday for a girl's day in the city, including Shopping, Lunch, Jamba Juice. Thats why I call it partial since I still have a group of people that I can count of both of my hands that I will be friends with for a while and with everything that bothers me.

i must say that the old expression is true "Better to few friends who would take a bullet for than many friends who would stab you in the back" Yikes! Now I am starting to sound emo but thats not what I want. I actually wanted to post a random quiz thing I took so if other people see this & wanna try its like a personal "Soundtrack to Yer Life" and here is mine:

1. So you walk into a your old high school and the first thing you think is:
Boom Town Suite - Murray Gold

2. Your significant other is:
Late Great Planet Earth - Plumb

3. Your life at the moment is:
What You Want from Legally Blonde

4. YOU at the moment are:
Help Yourself - Amy Winehouse

5. You feel like this a lot:
Lose Control - Evanescence

6. This is how you can impress people the most (i.e. your greatest talent):
Best Kept Secret - Skillet

7. In the middle of a Sunday, you are usually:
2OOO Volts - Big Bad Voodoo Daddy

8. Your appearance has this effect on people:
Infatuation - Christina Aguilera

9. You are obsessed with:
Bittersweet - Apocalyptica feat. Him & The Rasmus

10. Before you go to sleep, you think
I Have Friends in Holy Spaces - Panic! At the Disco

11. This song is a total reflection of your sex life:
Here With Me - dido

12. Your parents are:
Teenage Love Affair - Alicia Keys

13: Your family life is:
C’mon C’mon - The Von Bondies

14. Your relationship with God is:
In The End - Linkin Park (Vitamin String Quartet Ver.)

15. God's relationship with YOU is:
Animal I’ve Become - Three Days Grace (apparently)

16. You think that people in general:
Honestly Ok - Dido

17. You feel this way about yourself:
Damaged - Danity Kane

18. Think of a good friend. They are:
Hometown Glory - Adele

19. You want to have a party. The theme is:
Big and Bad - Big Bad Voodoo Daddy

20. Your friends in general are:
no hay igual - Nelly Furtado feat. Pharrell & Calle13

21. Your teachers are/were:
Karma Police - Panic! At the Disco cover

22. If you saw your ex six months later, you would be:
Stars - t.A.T.u

23. So you walk onto the red carpet. Everyone else thinks:
Re-Education - Rise Against

24. So you are getting married. The theme song to your wedding is:
Almost Here - Delta Goodrem & Brian McFadden

25. So you are getting divorced. The reason is:
Prosto Lyubit Teba - Rasputina & Philipp Kirkorov

26. You see love as:
Sally’s Song - Amy Lee cover

27. You see hatred as:
Halloween - Siouxsie and the Banshees

28. Whenever you are depressed, you:
Leavin - Jesse McCartney (muahahahahaha)

29. You want to ____ right now:
Princes of the Universe - Queen

30. So you see a gorgeous person right across the room. You think:
Je T’aime (Habibi) - Milk & Honey

31. So you need a hug. The reason is:
Restless - Alison Krauss & Union Station

32. When you are especially angry, you:
Nth Degree - Morningwood

33.The Song That Represents you and a now Ex-Boyfriend/Girlfriend or Current Boyfriend/Girlfriend (depending):
Whispers in the Dark - Skillet

34. Your ex thinks that you are:
That’s What You Get - Paramore

35. You think that your ex is:
You’re So Vain - John Barrowman

36. Your beauty is like:
Killer Queen - Queen

37. You dance like:
Just Dance - Lady Gaga

38. When you wake up in the morning next to the person of your dreams, you look deep into their big, beautiful eyes and say:
Sweet Temptation - Lillix

39. Think of an authority figure in your life (e.g. your boss, your Mom, etc.). They are:
Hades World - Immediate Music

40. You die. ______ should be playing in the background:
Song of Captivity and Freedom - Murray Gold

41. You meet with God. He reprimands you for all your evil deeds. In your defense, you exclaim with confidence:
You’re Gonna Go Far Kid - The Offspring

42. What will you re-post this note as?
Because We Want TO- Billie Piper!

2008-12-05T19:34:00.000-08:00

Okay.
I am so excited that it is already December! Like you can't believe how excited I am! Its the holidays...and I get to do my annual pre xmas lunch with my girls in the city on Wed, and and and its finals time, so that means classes will be over soon!!! Like this tuesday soon! ahhh...this means I am only getting closer to PC & The Inauguration & my Birthday of course! Your probably getting tired of all the exclamation points and stuff but humor me here, plz!

I had Psych today, so i was kinda like doozing away since it started at 8am, and i popped up at the question a few of the girls were talking about. It was the "Sex Up, Marry or Throw a Cliff" question but she asked it like this "You have a Marine, A Navy Boy and Army guy...who do you chose to Sex Up, Marry or Throw off a Cliff" And boy did that spark a conversation. I didn't get a chance to answer...quite sad though but the entire class all spoke their opinion on it and i kinda got one sneak in and my boy Jeff heard me and snickered (i hit him after class on the back of the head) "Depends on the size of the weapon for Ms.Gallagher over here, and I responded "Dont matter the size..its how you use it". Never realized how over sexualized that sounded in a Psychology class until now.

Good times, Good times.
Oh on to a few other things.
Early Morning Shopping Tomorrow .... maybe or maybe not I will go with Mom. I kinda wanna go by myself since I need to pick up the parental's gift and my friends too.
Doing pretty well in classes/ Love all my classes except my Music class right now since the professor is a prick.

give the US Economists a gold medal!

2008-12-01T19:45:00.000-08:00

the bright economists have official declared the US to be in a official Recession.
what the US have been in a non-official Recession since October than? stupid apes!
Obviously...and now that its "official", i guess the rest of the world is gonna follow our footsteps soon and go like "the nation of blah-blah-blah has entered a Recession". OMG, it is just frustrating.

Bombings in Mubai? It was orchestrated by 10 young adults and was successful considering the idiots who did it, some survived and got the passports of americans, brits and israeli's in India whoop-e-doo!!!! think they should have realized that, during the attack- it was split between Indians and Foreigners something was going down?!!?

Plaxico is dumbass: what a dumbass...shoots himself in the leg. hope the giants get rid of him. they won against the red skins with out him. no skin off my back if he is let go. let the other players get a shot.

Clinton is Secretary of State in Obama's Cabinet: boy will this be an interesting four years. all the egos in his cabinet...I wish i could be a fly on the wall for those meetings dealing with international cooperation and dealing with world crises. good luck US!

it hurts.

2008-11-19T12:43:00.001-08:00

i cant do it anymore.
all i wanna do in life right now is cry myself to sleep and never wake up.
everything hurts so much...everything is so bleak and i dont know why.

i cant....take it....any more.

i have accepted the fact that my life is going no where. Isnt that sad?
a girl who could have had everything but lost it due to a fucking mistake that everyone atleast makes once in their life. And i made it and lied and now...now it feels like its going down into a dark spiral.

i just want to scream as loud as I can and make someone notice me!!!!! i know i people that love me and tell me they know me as well as they know themselves...but its all a lie! A LIE! NO ONE KNOWS ME!!!!

i wish...oh i wish that I could escape the life I made for myself...without making anyone upset. i need comfort that no one can give me right now and I will probably never get that for a while anyway. I want...so badly to...to change who I am, but its not happening and I am not stopping myself.

is someone stopping me out there? A Deity? A God? My own Human Subconscious?!!! WHY CANT I FIND THE ANSWERS!!!!
i cant believe that I am rambling on again. Here I sit, a computer in my schools computer lab, trying to hold back in my tears from exploding, I dont even know why I feel so emotional and weepy all the time. God I am a wreck...officially a real wreck.

can i get past this? how do i get past this? what the hell should i try to get past?
i dont even know myself anymore, and I am so scared, so scared that no one can see it...see what is in me.

i
need
a
rescue

no words

2008-11-04T20:07:00.000-08:00

.life as we know it is over.
.new president elected.
.transition from republican to democratic.
.i hope that the Obama Legacy fails miserable and Hiliary Clinton runs and win in 2012.
.i still get to go to presidential classroom in the winter.

oh yea.

boo.boo.boo.boo.

its the end of the world as we know it.

2008-11-04T18:47:00.001-08:00

and I dont feel fine.

I voted.
i wanted neither mccain/palin and barack/biden. its upsetting already.
is it wrong for me to want like a hybrid of all their policies and create like
a super version of a them...and have that person run as a president?

seriously. i would like to say one last thing.

IF YOU KEEP SAYING YOUR GONNA FREAKING LEAVE THE COUNTRY IF YOUR SUPPOSED CANDIDATE FOR THE PRESIDENCY DOES NOT WIN.....DO US A FAVOR AND LEAVE....GO AWAY...NO ONE WANTS TO HEAR YOUR WHINING!!!!!!

ch ch ch changes...changes <3

2008-11-03T17:21:00.000-08:00

so here is an update on my life:

a)its official....i am transferring out of KBCC...to either three different colleges and none of them will be Adelphi...since I need to try a new thing. But my major is still gonna be Secondary Education also known as Adolescence Education in Social Studies (History).

b)getting everything through Transfer offices at KBCC sucks...especially when you try and visit your advisor, its like fucking horrible, excuse my language...but its like a pain in the ass. Guess I will just have to get in touch with the people in transfers at KBCC for everything....oh well. they will love me!

c)seriously...i need to get out of kbcc and go to a dorm setting. i am so ready since I doing good academically wise, so its like Yea For Me!!!

d)i vote for the first time tomorrow and its mcain' O8 baybeh!!!

arghhh

TRANSFERING SOON AND THAN I WILL BE FREEE!!!!

its official!!!!!

2008-10-28T14:31:00.000-07:00

I just got my official packet for Presidential Classroom 2009: The Inauguration!

And I am excited for this event, its gonna be soo good to see everyone again and to meet new people too. We are staying in a totally different place than we stayed at for the 2006 Presidential Classroom: Future World Leaders Summit. And I don't really have that much of rigorous schedule, so that means no 4am wake-up calls, or Hannah kicking me to wake up and trying not to crush Julie on the floor.

This makes me wonder who will be my roommates this time around, I use the plural because your normal crammed into a hotel room with two to four other roommates. I guess they didn't take into consideration that four girls in one hotel room with about 10 luggage cases and one bathroom would cause some major problems...but we got through it really, and made those 7 days more interesting than any other trip I had.

So off-track that was, but it relates I swear.
This program is special because it is open to Alumnae of PC of all ages, and that it is for the Inauguration of either McCain or(n)Obama to the seat of the POTUS(or President of the United States), and that I get to attend my first Black and White Ball. I am like over-excited!!!!

TTFN!

No One Uppin!!!

2008-10-24T15:00:00.000-07:00

Cute little title right?
and with the fact that it makes no sense it!
it is even better!
betcha you love the icon right..right?!?

OOH OOH OOH HEAR YOUR BELLY ACHING -GA LA LA LA !

Most random....very random...probbaly not. this is a filler post so Blehh-Boo-Bappp!

i have chosen my new tattoo

2008-10-20T08:58:00.000-07:00

This year... I am getting another tattoo. Where..I am not so sure yet.
Curious to know what is it? You will probably have to wait, until I get it and tell you.

But enough of that. Last Year, after my graduation...I got one that wrapped around
my ankle, and it did hurt, So i wondered...if i wanted to get another one...what should i get?

I thought and though and I am down to three, but it is positive that i am getting another tattoo.

Heroes RPG Character (dork!!)

2008-10-19T16:53:00.000-07:00

[IMG]http://i77.photobucket.com/albums/j74/maLange/ShiriAppleby.jpg[/IMG]

Name: Krystine O'Halloran
Age: 20
Ability:Sonic Manipulation
H/V: unknown but leaning towards Hero

History: Born to an family of Irish Immigrants, who left Ireland in the 1980's due to the Violence, and settled in New York. Her mother was born a medium and it ran throughout her family, her father had no abilities, and is the youngest of four siblings(all boys). Former Gymnast and Volleyball player.Attended a Community College at 17 and graduated at 20 with an Associate's degree Library Studies.

Krystine is slightly afraid of her powers due to the fact that when she had an argument with her mother, she shattered all the windows in a two mile radius.
Even though she is bit afraid of them, she accepts them as a part of herself, something that makes her special. With her petite frame of 5'4, the simple and modest Brunette likes that fact that she can blend in to the normal world.
Currently working as a Librarian in NYC and part time instructor at a sports club teaching Gymnastics to children.

2008-10-10T19:09:00.000-07:00

"and the water was closing all around
like the love that had finally, finally found me
iin the crystalline knowledge of you
drove me like a magnet to the sea
how the faces of love have changed turning the pages and
ii have changed oh, but you...you remain ageless
and the water was closing all around
like the love that had finally, finally found me
iin the crystalline knowledge of you

drove me like a magnet to the sea"

SUCCESS!!!!!

2008-09-28T19:21:00.001-07:00

YES!

I am allowed to withdraw from that terrible Music/Movement class due to the fact that it is not necessary for me to take, since I AM A LIBERAL ARTS/SECONDARY EDUCATION MAJOR!

NO MORE NO MORE NO MORE!!

i am super super happy!!!!!

the topic is odd i know but

2008-09-17T10:39:00.001-07:00

one post following another right. Yea but I was reading CNN online, trying to read up on the Money Situation and what exactly is going down in all the sense of the word. Most people are nervous and for good reason but they should be even more nervous due to the fact that our nation and other nations have become an international interdependent conglomerate in span of 30 years.

What does that mean to the American people in small towns? It means that everything is connected to each in simple terms, the example is that the NYSE is connected to the LSE & they in turn are connected to the HKSE (which in a nutshell is New York Stock Exchange = London Stock Exchange = Hong Kong Stock Exchange) which connects to other Stock Exchanges all over the world, bringing it back into New Yorks' playing field. One gets hurt..and the other will slowly but surely feel the pain. And that is our situation right now.

No, i am not an economist nor am I rich bitch princess. I just happen to family in the business and i am a very observant person. AND one with a half a brain could have figured out exactly what i just wrote.

On the Track /*/*/*/*/ Off Track

I feel that our Government also should stop giving so much help to all of these companies due to the fact that...WE THE PEOPLE NEED THE MONEY MORE!!! HELP US YA KNOW! That money can be sent down to Texas and such, or even for programs. Yes I know, I know that with the money market that will be even harder to do. The Government should understand that they made the mess, they should get out of it....or they should have at least seen this coming up our asses, right? Mentioning government right now also brings in the fact that it is election season...AND NEITHER CANDIDATE IS RIGHT AND WILL BE THE BETTER PERSON! Obama's promises are nothing but dirty and empty. McCain, even though he is a republican, his ideas are okay but wont help in the long run..only the short run (which is about 6months to 3years).

Getting off Track /*/*/*/*/ Back on Track:

Another thing to be worried about is the greed that grew and grew for these Fortune 500 companies that are tanking and having to be saved by each other only to fall into ruin before being bought out by European and Asian Companies. Example 1: would be Barclay's buying Lehman Brothers. This can be taken in two ways, uno for this being good and having everything build up by tapping into some-what foreign markets or dos for being bad and having the financial problems that are affecting us, slowly start to affect the European, Asian, and Middle Eastern Markets. Slowly proving that what all good history lovers know and preach to people that HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF!" Honestly...HELLO RECESSION! That is where there is good possibility that we will be heading.

This is just making me crazy and nervous..since when we graduate...we are gonna have to deal with the job market for business and politics firstly and secondly for all the other jobs since...this money equals our our medical and insurance coverage and benefits will work out.

this is a really really really long post.
sorry to have rambled but I have a
five hour break inbetween my classes,
from 10:10am to 2:50pm, leaving me
with nothing to due, so i have decided to
be more active in my blogging. No matter
how mundane it may be or how exciting it
may be. Wishing Happy birthday to Nora and Jillian
today!

hate being an education studies major!

2008-09-16T09:02:00.000-07:00

argh.

stupid idiotic music movement and workshop class. I hate it with a passion. I DON'T WANT TO TEACH CHILDREN UNDER THE AGE OF ELEVEN!!! I really don't see why education studies majors have to take this stupid class. Specially ones who want to teach History.

God..basically the reason why i am flipping out is that we need to work for one hour a week with students and "teach" them music, while recording it on a tape recorder. Which I feel we shouldn't do..since its like an invasion and I wouldn't want that done to my child or children. Honestly, just let us watch the children and help out with the teacher and let us observe and take notes on it.

I have asked like three schools, and they were like "we would love to help you but we are unsure if we can allow you to record your session." I explained that it was like forty percent of my grade but they were like "no, but we would need to send out a letter and get permission and the teachers permission". I hate this. I hate it. I hate this class. Just let me do the art workshop and get over it.

Honestly...i am thinking of asking my adviser if I can drop the class and just sign up for the Art Workshop in the spring and just use that as credit. But probably that wont happen, since they wanna torture me and make me teach music to the age group of students, I really, really do not wanna teach.

argh .argh .argh .argh.
i just wanna pull my hair and scream out loud,
or maybe I should just switch majors and be a librarian?

a Hurricane and a Glass of MonaVie

2008-09-06T18:47:00.000-07:00

Well. Well. Well. Look what the cat dragged in?
i love that saying, isn't quite catchy?

I am trying to think of something interesting or exciting in my life to write about but that hasn't happened yet. So i sit here with a glass of MonaVie & having my windows partially open to allow a mist of water to come through due to TS Hanna. Aren't I a lucky one? Blessing of living on a beach.

Due Tropical Storm/Hurricane Hanna, i am doing absolutely nothing this weekend. It is such a drag really. Once school starts and I have things to keep me busy...it wont be so boring. I will be able to go into NYC and do some serious shopping around. Be able to use a gym more often, since CUNY has one on most of their campus's. And gives me a chance to figure what the hell I want to do with my life after i move on to Brooklyn College.
Boy..this is where I miss not being closer in the vicinity to my bffl's who are at Adelphi, enjoying themselves and getting closer to each other whilst I am stuck in the sand hills of Rockaway Beach, still stuck in a small beach town.

So...with my obsession of General Hospital, i have been trying to do detective work to find out whats gonna be happening through spoilers and SPECULATION. And through what I have dug up...it appears to be interesting and can definitely shake up Port Charles.
Example A: We all know that for the Sonny/Kate Fiasco Wedding, there family will be attending, along with friends, colleagues and enemies. But Enter Olivia Falconeri, Kate's dearest cousin with BOMBSHELL of a SECRET! :: insert big audience gasp::
AND OR AND
Example B: With Laura giving her daughter strength and Lulu being called in as a witness for the trial of her lover-boy, the Mob Prince Johnny Zacchara, will she tell the truth of what happened or will she flee the country with the help of Big Brother Nikolas and Johnny?
dun dun dun

Felt like i should mention this because obviously none of my friends truly enjoy GH, like i do.
I ponder at what the secret could be that Olivia has. She did have a relationship with Sonny, so maybe she had his child and that child is known to Port Charles; or maybe telling Sonny that he and Kate had a child that she gave up for adoption before graduating college and moving on to a relationship with Trevor Lansing? Maybe, Maybe not...it is my idea of what could go down.

goals?

2008-08-26T19:39:00.000-07:00

I have a few things that I want done to become a studious and dull child to do it I so will do that.
AND what that it is, is to study harder and try to devote atleast 3hrs a day to studying
I am taking 5 classes this semester and each of them are 3.0 credits each meaning that for the Fall Semester 2008 which equals 14 credits. Four of those classes are 3.0 credits and one of them is a 2.0 credit class (none the less, it is still important). And my goal is to pass the semester and maintain almost perfect attendance. My class schedule consists of
Psych 32: Mon, Thurs, Fri- 8 to 9am [Human Growth & Development]
Music 27: Mon, Weds, Thurs- 9:10 to 10:10am [Music of the Worlds People]
Educ 23: Mon, Tues- 10:20am to 11:20am [Music and Movement Workshop]
Ant 37: Mon, Tues, Thursday- 12:40 to 1:40[Intro to Anthropology]
Psych 24: Mon and Weds- 3 to 4:30pm[Psychological Disorders in Young People]

My other is to read 4 non-school books in the span of September 8th till December 18th. This is to make sure that non-school books are to entertain me,make sure I don't go uber-bonkers.
Those books are and not necessarily in this order:
The Devil Wears Prada by Lauren Weisberger
Legally Blonde by Amanda Brown
Sex, Murder and a Double Latte by Kyra Davis
The Catholic Girl's Guide to Sex by Melinda Anderson, Kathleen Murray and Ali Arnold

And included in this is to lose some excess weight. I will also need to watch CNN & BBCA a bit more often to catch up on the news all over the world (again) because I am returning to Presidential Classroom and I feel I should have to catch up even more.
And I will be devoting some of my blog time to politics and what not, as to look back and refresh things in my head.

taa!***

S.N.L

2008-08-21T19:31:00.000-07:00

Who doesn't love Saturday Night Live...its such a good an amazing and timely comedy show.
And in that I include the beginning in 1975 till around 2003 since they had the best years in between that, so many that I couldn't choose.

i write this because I am watching 101 Most Unforgetable SNL Moments on E! (Entertainment Channel...yo!!) And Wayne's World is NUMBAH 1!

so many good skits:
Celebrity Jeopardy comes to mind!

2008-08-15T12:53:00.000-07:00

Figures.
Well..today starts the arrival of all the family and friends of the Gallagher's. Why you ask? Its my Uncle's wake and funeral this weekend. It's upsetting to lose him at a young age (was only 53) and that he went so quickly too.It only took about three weeks from when he get bad and than finally, stopped fighting and passed on. All of the immediate family is flying along with all the cousins..and I mean all of the cousins. Thats 21 + 25 + numerous Rockaway-ites that grew up with my family and became super close friends over the years. So we are renting out a very local resturant's upper floor for food after the funeral for those mentioned above only, really keeping it small. I have to say that its times like this that it lucks out to have an uncle who owns a funeral home. On top of that, my cousin was in a serious motorcycle accident but is doing quite well (he has a fractured skull but thats it) and he is coming up to funeral which is really good since he wont be alone than while everyone is here. So its been very very hectic couple of weeks.

Moving on to the next topic:
Finally figured out what my CUNY portal name and password was, so that takes care of alot of things, especially when I have to sign up for my classes for the spring and summer semester next year. I would really like to the winter semester but I can't since I will be attending PRESIDENTIAL CLASSROOM again for the Inauguration of the next President of the United States of America....AND AND I get to see alot of my old Delegate mates from PC: Future World Leaders Summit 2006, which will a great boost. Got a little off topic but back to what I wanted to say about the CUNY Portal thing is that it leads to e-Sims, where i can register and pay my tuition online and all that jazz.

that is all
x0x0x0x
caseyg

2008-08-08T15:32:00.001-07:00

In life, God only gives us as much trouble as we can handle but sometimes the more he gives us the more he trusts us and it sucks because you can't handle all of it.
And right now thats what my family is going through...proving that no matter what the bond of a family is stronger than anything. I am happy that I can vent on this, knowing that people that I know never check this thing nor do they now It exists.

On to a happier subject: classes will resume very soon and thats exciting for me, since school is lively and gives me a wonderful escape and I will mostly likely need that soon depending on how everything goes. AND all the fabulous people from Adelphi are coming back!!!! Yess.....party time returns oh so soon!!

And to keep updated;
Lets see, according to the news, whats going on:

1)oil prices are going down and the American Dollar value is going up. Wall Street is fluxing but the bad things is that it will go up and go down again until we hit some stability but no one knows what that stability is or will be.

2)Politicians should learn TO KEEP IT IN THE PANTS!!! FUCK THE PRESSURE OF BEING SUPPOSED VICE FREAKING PRESIDENT!!! THAT MEANS YOU JOHN EDWARDS!!! Yea...blame it on pressure that your going through.... and have to tell your wife who is sick with cancer....you fucktard!!! Well no one is getting choose him as a running mate...SO YOUR POLITICAL AMBITIONS ARE RUINED!!

3)Olympics have started yesterday (China is a day ahead of New York). Everything seems to be going so well and I cannot wait to watch everything. But China better get the move on with Human Rights and how to handle the activists without looking like the oppressor and not being a more modern nation. We also opened the newly rebuilt and restored American Embassy in Beijing today.... conveniently Bush is one of the few western Leaders attending the opening ceremony while the other leaders will be attending the Closing ceremonies.

4)Russia invades South Ossetia, which is in Georgia (no the US, but a former Soviet Republic)
South Ossetian's have Russian Passports but Georgian Politicos want it to remain under Georgian Control. We have relations with both countries but we have Military advisor's placed there (and they also have a sizable force of soldiers in Iraq).

wooty woo!

2008-08-04T16:33:00.000-07:00

its official! I am on the road to planning my trip to C0MIC-C0N 2OO9!!!

i have been researching everything, including airfare and hotel prices. I am going to plan entirely in advance such as making reservations as early as Dec/Jan. And booking the flight around maybe like Mar/Apr for a very very early flight out of JFK to LAX.

your probably thinking that I am insane for doing everything early but it is a smart idea. So i can see how much this trip is going to cost. I may be doing this alone or I may not...it depends. My mom prefers that I don't go by myself but no one else really knows that I truly live up to the word geek. Its a badge of honor. Think I may ask Barbara if she wants to come?

Catchy...Catchy?

2008-08-01T14:10:00.000-07:00

i know. the headline sucks but whatever, i dont have te ability to make it catchy or eye popping.
this time i have decided that maybe i should just do a review of stuff, so here we go:

Movies: The Dark Knight equals AMAZING. Heath Ledger, Aaron Eckhart, Christian Bale,
and Gary Oldman were incredible as usual. The scenes containing Bale as Batman and Ledger as the Joker are interesting and prove their worth as formidable actors, especially with Ledger's role and how much he took the role into his own. (God Bless His Soul).
On that note: there are rumors are already starting about the third sequel and names are being pulled out of hat. Nolan said he wont bring in Robin(Both the Dick Greyson*Tim Drake Versions) but he never said no to other characters. Personally, if and IF HE DECIDES to do a third, i would like to throw out a few characters can work in Nolan's movie-verse. They are
a)The Riddler (portrayed by David Tennant w/ hair dyed Red or James Franco)
b)Hush (portrayed by either Gerard Butler or even Justin Hartley)
c)The Mad Hatter (portrayed by Jim Carrey, Johnny Deep or
d)Mr.Zsasz (portrayed by Billy Zane)
e)Harley Quinn( Brittany Murphy)
f)Catwoman (Angelina Joile, [only if you play her off as manipulative, highly sexual and like Batman is the face whereas Bruce Wayne is the Disguise].

Any one else has opinions?

yo no se?

2008-07-30T23:20:00.000-07:00

god
life
sucks
major
balls.

there is a positive though.
i go to boston soon!

2008-07-22T05:25:00.001-07:00

I think that this is one of the times that I am happy that hardly any one knows that I have Blogger.

Let me roll back to why I believe this:
Recently... I just took a vacation to Mexico with my entire family as I have previously mentioned in other posts. Looking back---family vacations are good to point and than they just plain old suck, honestly. I had fun, don't get me wrong but it just ended up sour for me in the end, and with the entire family giving me strange and pitiful looks the day we left the resort did not help me. (I love my family but sometimes I feel like the pink sheep in a barn of white sheep). On top of that: I lost my loverly amazing camera that had photos that I didn't get the chance to upload on them which pissed me off to no end &&& i left my i-pod charger in the bathroom of my hotel room.

Back in the states right now: finishing up my last week at session 1 classes and have my finals tomorrow and thursday. Yes, since i was in Mexico for a week....I had to skip a week of classes for both my psych and socio. Which sucks since I have a super big gap to catch up with and the stupid old socio professor wont really go over what HE taught and I have that final on Wednesday!!!!!! which is tomorrow! Well on the other hand my psych professor was really nicer about it and let me take the test that I missed and gave me the papers I would need before hand to help prepare myself.

got caught in the rain walking to school this morning. it sucked. i had no umbrella with me. stupid back didnot protect my head. feel grumpier know because of this day. blah.

Changes in the House of Gallagher

2008-06-28T11:40:00.000-07:00

There are some monumentous things right now, even more than I ever expected their would be.

Firstly....we have the second family trip to the Mayan Rivera; this is including everyone in my family basically thats 22 of us and out of the number, seven of us are cousins and are the party children. We leave in two weeks and I am excited and nervous. Why you ask? Well because at times I cannot stand my cousins, especially when they are drunk and I am drunk; 8 days of fun filled family events; and spf 50.

Secondly...myself, my parents and my mom's family will all be meeting my mom's eldest daughter on July 5th, in upstate New York. Yes...Jeanna agreed to visit and finally meet everyone of us. I am super nervous, since she is bringing my niece with her and her husband. Will she except us? Will she like me? How will this go over? SO many questions and I do not know what to do!

Thirdly...I don't feel like myself anymore. I feel like a shell of myself honestly. I need the summer to be over like soon, so I can go back to being the real me and hang out with my girls again. I miss the nights out, none of my other friends wanna do these things, they are like "lets go out and party at a club where YOU will feel uncomfortable" or "Nyahh we should so do nothing and be bored like totally".

something

2008-06-19T12:26:00.000-07:00

Not exactly sure how life is going tight now. Nor do i know where its gonna take me or who it will introduce me too.
But i do know one thing though, that it will probably be better than the past couple of months I have been having.

Thunder Booms, Lighting Skies

2008-06-08T16:17:00.000-07:00

Today was 99 degrees by 5:30pm.
And currently at 7:20 it is thunder storming and raining like crazy.
And its 95 degrees also.

Listening to instrumental music like this makes everything more majestic than it is. It also gives me an idea I should really give to my cousin Stephanie. She is a writer and is working her way towards Hollywood. I wish her the best..she is one of my favorite cousins after all.

Also found out some news about one of my good friends, and I am really good friends with him. Its sad and I always find a way to help him out but there is no way i can help him this time and it saddens me this time. I hope he didn't make the mistakes I did. Whatever happens, he will always have my support....he is one of my besties.

Still trying to find work...I am hoping my luck changes soon, and I that i get the job at limited too. I really do want it, I honestly do, it will make traveling from school easier.
Peace

cleverness and beer

2008-06-04T14:13:00.000-07:00

Hello again it has been ten days since my last post... and I have officially finished my midterms for the spring semester at CUNY KBCC.
I was able to find out what my Lit grade was for the semester..and not surprisingly it was a C-, but I passed it and I get my four credits..so NYAHHH NYAHHH NYAHH to the teacher who told me I was gonna fail.

Now I am just waiting on my European History(took today), my Foundations of Education(took today), my Political Science/American Gov't(took yesterday) and my other Education class(took in May).
Hope to get them soon, so i can see how well I did and to see if I got my 2.75 GPA meaning I am allowed to stay there (HAIL MARY LET ME STAY!!)

Next note is that trying to find a job sucks. I still have yet to hear from KBCC, Aviator Sports Complex and Limited Too and not to mention Dunkin Doughnuts. I just want a summer job that will give me pay, is it truly that hard to hire someone?! Ughh, i am happy that I can at least make money through babysitting and being a mothers helper. I wanna try and be a true au pair. A friend of a friend did it, and made a shit load of money, which is something that I desperately need right now.

meh continue my ranting later..its shower and nap and 2 for 1 burger time!

Another Day Wasted & Gone....

2008-05-24T11:32:00.000-07:00

once again it is a saturday and I am at home with nothing to do. God do i have a sad and pathetic life right now. I just want everything to go back to normal and back to what I liked. I mean why do I have to be so closed from my oldest friends? I mean, if our friendship has lasted over like 7 years, one would assume that we would hang out and do stuff, right?
No! Never! thats not how we work..... examples are that one of my oldest and dearest friend no longer answers my calls, instant messages, and emails. All I want to do is hang out and do lunch and walk around Manhattan, not with other people, just by ourselves at least once a month. But she has become a stoner pothead who is ATTEMPTING to go to College....I wish her the best at it but whatever.
And lets not even get on to the others...one ignores me, the other uses me for her sympathies, another is just a slutty hoe.

I need to starting tanning. I need to get to a gym. I need a life. I want my friends back from their home states. I need a nice large alcoholic drink. My life sucks.

2008-05-22T20:20:00.000-07:00

It is about almost of the end for the battle between Obama and Hilliary for the Democratic Nomination of President...who will go against John McCain who is holding it down for the Republicans. And with the whole two states votes in limbo of not being allowed to count is making everyone crazy. Honestly, if they allowed to the two states voters vote in limbo to count will place Hilliary ahead of Obama and that would make her the new front runner. My personal thought is that the powers-that-be in the Democratic party would rather have an African-American MALE than a Caucasian FEMALE in the position of Power of the Presidency. If Obama gets the vote... I am so voting for McCain--- just because I feel that if McCain gets elected and people dont like him, they public wouldn't re-elect him and that means Hilliary could run again and be victorious in 2012 elections.
Okay on this point....I was in philosophy class a few weeks, visiting my friend Aerinn and it was discussing the current elections and how religion plays a factor (really good discussion by the way!) and one of the students brought up the factor that she overheard her pastor speaking about how he the pastor believed that Obama Barrack was the Antichrist...which had certain people in the class laughing and taking offense. I thought that it was outlandish but the student speaking about her pastor, said that he had some good points and reiterated them. I won't get into the whole thing but I think that she had swayed a few people and EVEN the professor looked impressed.
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Eh..not concerned about that.....Honestly I am more concerned about me finding a job this summer to help my parents out with the money and my academic-ness and my summer session classes. Thats about it. I got an application for the Limited Too at the local mall by me, and I just need to hand it in and HOPEFULLY get the job. Wish me Luck!

Rainy Sundays....

2008-05-18T11:17:00.000-07:00

Its Sunday, May 16th, 3:18pm: and I am procrastinating by writing here than my Literature paper on a book called "The Namesake" by Jhumpa Lahiri because I don't feel like writing it. So I am on the carpet, laying down in the empty upstairs aparment because I feel like it. It is quite and I can hear the rain pitter and patter and hopefully catch a lightening storm but i doubt that since it stopped heavily down pouring.

Life: I have about maybe two weeks of classes left and than my finals. Than I take a summer session about a week after my finals till July 24. Yea I am the smart one for doing that I know..but hey I get to take up to 8 credits for free! Its good not to pay anything for once alright. Than I still have to find a job for the summer. which will suck but I have to do it. Oh well, lets up I get a good job at like a store or something!!! Joy

Personal: My friends are back home now and it is quite lonely. I have to say, sadly and pathetically that I have only four close friends and the rest range from friends to associates. Life is okay--- could be better but we are pulling through, since Dad is back to work and Mom has jobs again...and hopefully when I get my job I will be able to contribute to it.

2008-05-16T13:53:00.000-07:00

How long have you been breathing?
19 1/7th of a year

Are you single?
yes i am.

Whats your name?
Casey

Do you love yourself the way you are?
only in the winter

What color are your eyes?
Hazel-Blue

What color is your hair?
brunette

Are you in love?
Was in love

Whats your favorite song?

This is the Life by Amy MacDonald

Do you smoke?
noo

Do you drink?
yes, socially only.

Have you ever tried drugs?
no

WHATS YOUR FAVORITE..

Whats your favorite kind of pizza?
cheese or pepperoni

Whats your favorite color?
green

Whats your favorite kind of ice cream?
strawberry & vanilla

Whats your favorite tv show?
Deadliest Catch!

Ever had sex on a slide?
no

Ever made out in the rain?
i wish...and i want the chance

Ever made out with a stranger?
yes...drunkenly

Ever been arrested?
no

Ever faked an orgasm?
no

Ever slapped an adult?
i slapped a few bitches my age but no one older 30.

Ever been in a car crash?
i have been in a fender bender but no "crash"

Ever broken a bone?
nope

Ever been drunk?
stupid question, i have been bombed, trashed, gone, wasted, drunk, smashed, inebriated, hammered.

Ever cried yourself to sleep?
yes...its horrible

Ever been madly in love?
ridiculously in love was more like it.

Ever made out with the same sex?
yes. an encounter at Dizzy's.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU..

Had sex?
a while ago.

Took a shower?
this morning

Cried?
today

Told someone you loved them?
Yesterday

Slapped someone?
no one.

Punched something?
three months ago

RANDOMNESS..

What was your first thought this morning?
another rain day...sweet, I want Lightening!

Have you cried today at all?
no

Do you actually believe in perfection?
perfection is in the mind of the beholder

would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
i like rainy

Have you been to New York City?
yes..if you live in the suburb of New York...you have visited it.

What do you think about before you go to bed?
normally, its "fucking school tomorrow" but weekends its "i hate it at home".

Last time you did laundry?
five days ago...and doing it in five minutes

Do you fight with your parents?
mostly with my mom and sometimes with my dad.

Have you ever just went out with a girl/guy because you were desperate and they asked?
no....i have morals

Where did you sleep last night?
my comfy bed!

Do you want kids?
adoption yes.

Do you have any expensive jewelry?
yes, i do...necklaces, jewelry and rings.

How many close friends do you have?
i have 5 close friends: Aly, Nora, Liz, Michelle, Stephanie,

What is your sibling('s) name?
Jeana and Tatum

Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
yea..there names are Steve and Davey

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
i oh so totally believe in it.

What are you listening to?
Radio Virgin UK....a station in England, its currently playing the Zuttons- Valerie

Would rain actually stop you from going somewhere or ruin your plans?
no...not really

Last time you saw your parents?
I saw my Dad last night and my mom about 15 minutes ago.

What woke you up this morning?
my internal alarm clock which resulted in a fight with my mom

Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
ummmm yea it should b but well c how it goes

Did you kiss or hug anyone yesterday?
yes

Who was the last person you rode in a car with?
Michelle

Do long distance relationships work?
no..hardly ever.

Who is your number one on myspace?
Nora

Who do you wish you were with right now?
I wish I had Nora, Aly, Liz, Steve, Tara, Davey, Stephanie, Marc, Cory, Heather, Alex and we were at Applebee's

Do you listen to music everyday?
yeaa...like religiously

Is anything bothering you?
a few things

Do you miss someone?
yes

Are you in a bad mood?
kinda

When were you the saddest in your life?
about 5 months ago.

Have you ever loved someone and were too scared to tell them?
yes

What are you allergic to?
dust and pollen(tree and flower)

How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
7 hours and alot of rockstar and redbull

Has anyone told you a secret this week?
no

Have you told someone else that secret?
no

What are you thinking about right now?
why is life a bitch and why cant I CHOOSE my choice for a job!!!!

Where'd you get the shirt your wearing?
Junkfood

Who do you currently like?
a friend

Do they like you?
he does but not like I do

Sunrise or Sunset?
i like the beginning of Sunrise and the end of Sunset

What time did you go to bed last night?
12:30am..i was really tired

Time you woke up?
11am

What movie is in your DVD player?
Roswell Season 2

When is your birthday?
March 13

Last thing that made you mad?
I couldnt find my Tiffany ring

Are you cocky?
no

Can you speak French?
no

Have you ever killed an animal?
i dont kill animals

Do you make your bed daily?
yes..

Your favorite movie?
love actually

Do you own slippers?
yes...purple fuzzy slippers

Is there a TV in your bedroom?
no...just my laptop and radio

How many piercings do you have?
two

What do you think of Tom Cruise?
odd and a bad actor

Do you own or rent?
my parents own the house we live in...but i am hoping to rent my own apartment.

Do you get a christmas tree?
yes, a live one

Last two numbers in your phone number?
21

Who was the last person you called?
Nora

Where is your mom from?
Manhattan

Are you afraid of the dark?
sometimes

Can you roll your tongue?
yes

Who was the last person to call you?
umm I think it was Nora

Best fast food french fries?
oh no doubt McDonald Fries

How was your day?
nothing eventful

Have you ever eaten a T-Bone Steak?
no..I have eaten a London Broil

Can you skateboard?
hahaha i suck big time

How about play an instrument?
used to play piano, guitar and violin

Song you're listening to right now?
A Kind of Magic by Queen

Who's in your house?
Mom, me and the ghost of Kieko!

What are you doing today?
straightening my hair, cleaning and doing homework

Is your window open?
Yes.

....Because its 9 in the Afternoon....

2008-05-07T16:01:00.000-07:00

I have a few things to mentions, so I am gonna do it number bulleting form---- yeeeeah!

1) Well....people....i have the best news: I AM SEEING PANIC! AT THE DISCO TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!
thought i should share that with you all. I am seeing it with BFFL Amanda and we are supah super excited. As its gonna be like our fourth or concert together. We have a tendency to do concerts with each other and vacations as well. I guess its because we compliment each other very well. Its a good thing that we BFFL's!

2)I have a Gov't exam tomorrow and I am so so so not ready for it. I do not do well with American Gov't class or any type of gov't class for that matter. I know that it is important but honestly...i am not going into government or political science but a teacher or historical researcher. Its not important in the careers I want and i agreed to not brush it away or off. I promise to do my best..but its BOOORiNG.

3)I was able to choose my classes for the Summer Module at KBCC; Which consist of :
Monday thru Thursday 9:00am to 10:35am- Intro to Sociology *
Monday thru Thursday 10:45am to 12:20pm- General Psychology*
And I was also able to register for my Fall'08 Semester classes at KBCC; which consist of:
Monday, Thursday, Friday 8:00am-9:00am- Human Growth & Development*
Monday, Wednesday, Thurs 9:10am-10:10am- Music of the Worlds People*
Monday, Tuesday 10:20am-11:20am- Music and Movement Workshop*
Monday, Tuesday, Thursday 12:40pm-1:40pm- Intro to Anthropology*
Monday, Wednesday 3:00pm-4:30pm- Psychological Disorders in Children*

I think that it is a pretty good schedule you know? Yea...its crazy classes all at once but i can handle it, it is the same amount of credits i have now, which is 14 credits nd plus the 6 from the summer classes, and HOPEFULLY by the spring I will transfer to a SUNY and be back in a dorm setting and everything....which would be so amazing and back to what I know pretty well. I do not particularly care where...BUT if i have to transfer to a CUNY....it would most likely be to Brooklyn College.

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I promised I would post pics and this is what I am doing. The three people in these photos are my sisters.
Nora who is the "fiery Irish Ohioan Weasley Hippie" &&& Aly who is the "Delta Gamma Texan Jewish Republican Broadway Princess" and Myself, who is the other "Irish Mamacita Jamba Vodka Juice Gypsy".
We are the odd triangular couple.
Me........Nora Nora...............Aly

AND FINALLY ALL THREE OF US!!!

1

2008-05-02T16:20:00.000-07:00

I have a question...is it so hard for friends to come and visit you?
i mean seriously....i live in queens, you live in garden city....there is a train to get you here!!!!!
And i always go out to visit you, just once please visit me in my town, my house,where we can also go to bars and out to the city and walk and do crazy best friend things!!!

sorry. i had to get that out.

the first...and not the last

2008-05-01T12:21:00.000-07:00

I am happy that i actually have a place to express my thoughts or just even type what i am feeling, since everyone that I know has live journal and facebook and myspace. Not a lot of them have "blogger", so i kinda lucked out finding this place.
What is there to say so maybe i should just write a bit about me. Is that conceited?....probably not AND later on as I post, i will describe and add pictures to show my life, as I continue to grow and learn and party but i wanted to get this out of the way okay.

I am a nice brunette who is at the tail end of her second semester in college in the CUNY system. I live in a predominantly Irish/Italian town in Queens. I have six very close female friends and an even larger group of male friends due what one of them call "little sister syndrome", which basically means i am the little sister and they are the over-protective brothers and its their duty to watch me. I have two half sisters and about 22 first cousins and 27 seconds cousins with whom i keep in relatively close contact with (we facebook it and talk mostly every other day). I am an animal lover, but i have an affection for Egyptian Mau cats and Corgi dogs. I am a Pisces and Earth Snake, according to western and eastern astrology. I am debating between Primary Education and History as my Major. I have a major love for Rugby and Scrap booking. Thats me in a nut shell, oh and my favorite drink is mixed drink or a good cold beer.